There's a fine line..

So there's a topic that I have been sitting with for a good couple of months now, and only because it's taken me quite a while to marinate it all and finally embrace my decision.
A couple of months ago I was introduced to the possibility of having botox and fillers after having a very in depth consultation with a reputable professional. Hesitant at first and not knowing what to expect, I have since decided against any sort of such treatments.
Let me just say the clinic I consulted with was extremely professional and obviously knowledgeable regarding all of this. Knowing me, I had a million questions and they were addressed very comfortably and with great ease. At the time when I was researching all of this I had just turned the big 40, which was probably what kick started all of this silly behaviour. With that came the 'instant' wrinkles which I'm sure had been there all along but just made its presence felt because I was now older. I have since accepted the absolute madness of the way all this age stuff affects ones mind. Let me please highlight I am referring to my own mind here, because I poked and prodded every line, every frown and eventually I gave up.
Regardless of how easy it is to make an appointment and just pop by for a quick botox shot or two or three, as was recommended for me, I don't think I would ever do it. What I did see in the mirror was me just beating myself up when every wrinkle and line was a part of me and of my journey through this blessed life. The ups and downs, the constant 'mommy worrying' about my children's first everything in life. Would they be ready for anything this big world would throw their way? Every wrinkle reminded me of where I had been. My precious heart that had been through too many losses, one too many break ups and the daily shake ups.
I'm happy to report I am not ready to betray my beating heart so it's peaceful once again even though some days my boobs do seem like they could do with a good old lift, and my tummy is not as tight as I would like it to be. Oh see here I go again!

This is my story and everyone may feel differently obviously, just know that self love and acceptance is never an easy feat when we as women are constantly bombarded with unrealistic images which are contoured and filtered to the point of an apple now looking like a orange.

I accept that I am never going to be perfect in any way but I refuse to compare myself to a twenty year old who has never walked my path. Because note to self here..I have already walked all of hers!

For those of you interested in the clinic I went to, It's called Heart Charm Aesthetics and based at 21 Atlantic Road, Muizenberg Ph: 021 788 9466. They have an amazing team and offer some great treatments as they specialise in skin rejuvenation.